Archive | September 2015

It is the 40th Day

Sep17

For a few days now, I’ve been attempting to choose a song to minister at a service and no thing was coming to mind for the cause.  When I was asked about what I would be rendering, I had no other answer than, “I don’t know.”

On this morning’s drive, I succinctly heard the phrase, “SAY YES TO ME.”  Instantly, the lyrics to one of my favorites rose to awareness:  “God wants a YES!  YES to His will!  YES to His way!”  Soon thereafter, a medley of “YES” songs began to flow as I made my declaration of  YES to the voice of the LORD my YAH!  YES to do right in His sight!  YES to give ear to His commandments and keep ALL His statues!

Sitting at my desk, with the intent to meditate and soak in the scriptures, that I BElieve in, Exodus 15:25-27 was the very first scripture that enlightened me:

“And he cried unto the LORD; and the LORD shewed him a tree, which when he had cast into the waters, the waters were made sweet: there He made for them a statute and an ordinance, and there He proved them, and said, IF thou wilt diligently hearken to the voice of the LORD thy God,and wilt do that which is right in His sight, and wilt give ear to His commandments, and keep all His statues, I will put none of these diseases upon thee, which I have brought upon the Egyptians: for I am the LORD that healeth thee.  And they came to Elim, where were twelve wells of water, and threescore and ten palm trees: and they encamped there by the waters.”

While meditating, at 9:52 a.m. (16, means love) the enemy started to pressure me with false advertisements (deceptions) of love.  Just 10 days ago, September 7, 2015, I wrote about how my oil level is at 100%, and I will LET no man deceive me.  Today, there was evidence that my oil level is maintained.  At 10:24 a.m. (7, means perfection or completeness) the Holy Spirit, in a few perfect words, whispered to my soul, “It is the 40th day!”

I quickly jumped up and BEgin to worship the LORD with my voice.  I looked at the date and did the calculation, not because I wasn’t sure, but because I was sure that I had heard accurately.  Sure enough, today is the 40th day (I had started a journey of potentials on August 8, 2015), and my conscious self came alive to what was opened up in my spirit.

The Spirit of the Truth has been speaking to me with numbers for a long time now.  So, I started studying the number 40.  Forty, from a biblical perspective, means a period of testing, trials, or probation.  During my 40-day encounters, I didn’t even realize that I was being tested.  Nonetheless, at the moment of revealed knowledge I couldn’t resist the lifting of my hands, the walking and rejoicing, and the tears of thanksgiving BEcause I had passed this period of persuasion.

The enemy said,

“I will pursue her; I will overtake her; and my lust shall BE satisfied upon her.”

Even so, there was yet a predetermined plan for this will.  The enemy and my days of old behavioral configuration (giving in to enticements) were defeated BEcause I recognized the wile spirit and rebuked it.  Through it all, Marah (meaning a drop of bitterness or heaviness) could have been my disposition.  I could have chosen to pitch a fit.  However, I choose to pitch a tent and LET peace and gladness abide.  SELAH!

There is this one thing I’ve desired for my household, and twice in the last 40-days the prospect of having my desire was at my pleasure.  Yet and still, the Spirit alive was guiding me in that the presence that I’ve heard for 40-days was not the suitable presence for us.  Thus, the invariable nature of my position, as an unmarried mother, is this:  it is not due diligence for me to (and I cannot) make swift decisions concerning my hope.  I must continue to rely on, and put my trust in, YAH as I work my faith.

I’m unequivocally certain that there will BE many more 40-days.  As for this one though, I acclaim, “My YES is to the righteousness of YAH and the guidance of His Spirit!”  In such, there is no failure.

© 2015 Angela M. Smith

The Authority of The Father

Sep9

To the rebellious wife and the irresponsible husband, I know that something has happened to one of you to BEcome as you are and for the other to naturally respond to what you’ve BEcome. How do we get the family back to a healthy posture? How will our households ever BE a wholesome image of Who God is and how He established family if father or mother is absent?

Today, when I sought counsel on a matter, I learned a valuable lesson about my role as mother.  I was desperate for a father for my sons, and in that desperation I reached out to a couple of young men who, in the conclusion of the matter, could not offer one word of strength.  I was hurting and wanted the help of a father.  That help was not available!  It has not been alive for my household for over 17 years.  In my cry for peace and understanding, I discovered that when the husbandman fails in his leadership function as husband and father I have The Authority of The Father to do what a father should BE doing in my home.  I have been given the “designated power” to father my children.

  1. I have compassion for them (Psalm 103:13).
  2. I advocate for and carry my sons. Not only physically have I carried them, but I bear them up emotionally, financially, spiritually (Deuteronomy 1:31).
  3. When they sin, I rise up early to pray for them (Job 1:5).
  4. I don’t give my son a stone instead of a loaf; I give good gifts to my children (Matthew 7:9-11; Luke 11:11-13).
  5. I don’t provoke my children unto anger, as I don’t want them to lose heart.  So, I nurture them in the admonition of the LORD.  They might get mad at my chastising and diligently disciplining them, but I do this BEcause I love them.  It is for their good. I correct my sons BEcause I love them.   I’m quick to repent, to assure them I AM for them and not against them.  I tell them they can actually BE angry, just don’t sin by letting the sun go down on their wrath (Ephesians 6:4; Colossians 3:21; Proverbs 3:11-12; 13:24; Ephesians 4:26; Hebrews 12:7-11).
  6. I desire my sons to live a good life.  Thus, I’m constantly praying prayers of protection; I do not desire them dead.  I know that foolishness is bound up in the heart of a child, this is why the rod of discipline (the Word of God) is driving it far from them. I have the power to decree that they will not bring shame to me; my reproof gives them wisdom (Proverbs 19:18; 22:15; 29:15).
  7. I teach them to love the LORD our God and to BE the Word of God. We sit and talk of His Word in my house, in the car, at the park, and on the highway.  We go to sleep to His Word (Deuteronomy 6:6-7; 11:18-21).
  8. I exhort and comfort my children.  Not a day comes and a night goes that they don’t get warm hugs, pats on the butt, bedtime back rubs, I love you’s 50 million times a day, you did good son, I’m liking those grades keep up the good work, you got this, do your part and I’ll do mine, etc. (1 Thessalonians 2:11).

You see, God has enabled me (given me authority) to father my children.  There is no one else here to do it.  And, BEcause I have The Authority of The Father I, an unmarried virtuous woman and mother, vow to model a life of  gratefulness, appreciation, Pure Divine Love, forgiveness, humility and temperance with this designated power.

© 2015 Angela M. Smith

100 Percent

Sep7

For 4 weeks now, I’ve been praying about a plausible contingency that will bless my household and complete our desires.  Since 08.08.15 (eight meaning new beginning), I’ve had 4 dreams that spoke to and about this new thing. During these last 30 days, there were times I had felt as though my certainty was slipping into uncertainty as anxiety was a grouch, crying ‘LET ME IN’.  However, I didn’t open the door.  I kept on praying and I kept on BElieving.

Around 0245 hours on 09.05.15, I laid a pray BEfore the LORD.  At 1045 hours (8 hours later), I got in my car (after having the oil changed) and the oil indicator read – 100%.  This was normal as it always read 100% after every oil change.  However, in the batting of an eye I heard the Holy Spirit (gently and clearly as I can naturally hear) say, “Your oil level is at 100%!”  That was such an EXHILARATING experience!

Forthwith, I knew that response was a direct correspondence to my supplication and to the dreams.  One of the other first things that came to my mind was Matthew 24:4 (KJV) “…take head that no man deceive you”, and Ephesians 5:6(a) (KJV) “…LET no man deceive you with vain words.”   This was of great comfort to me, as the potential of being deceived is what caused the anxiety in the beginning.  I didn’t want to BE deceived or fall into the trap of deception.

Well, it was in the 4th dream that the Holy Spirit showed me how to put deception in check.  In this dream, I was leaving a facility and in the lobby were three people: 2 sitting in a waiting area and 1 sitting at a check-in/out counter.  There was a middle-aged man facing the desk and as I arrived this is the short conversation we had:

MAN:  Ms. Smith?

ME:  Yes Sir?

MAN:  I have a package for you.  I have included you in my living will.  All that I have, I give it to you.

ME:  (looking around the lobby to make sure he had the right Ms. Smith) Are you talking about me?

MAN: Yes!  IT IS YOURS!

I went behind the desk and begin to do my RESEARCH!  I needed to have assurance and BE secure that he was not trying to scam me.

This thing called research is a powerful noun.  It means to carefully study; studious inquiry; to investigate aimed at discovery and the interpretation of facts.  Koheleth, the son of David, also called Preacher, said that “he applied his heart to know, and to search, and to seek out wisdom, and the reason of things…” (Ecclesiastes 7:25, KJV).  This is the kind of searching and researching I applied in this dream.

While doing my research, I saw the man in a corner talking with a lady.  The lady said, “She is a smart woman.  She is not going to BElieve what you have given her until she has fully searched you out.  We can’t deceive her.”  The “we can’t deceive her” was not inferring that they were trying to deceive me, but rather that I wouldn’t LET them deceive me.  There is no room for deception and I wouldn’t or couldn’t LET them deceive me BEcause my oil level is full!  SELAH!

100 PERCENT!

© 2015 Angela M. Smith