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How To Ask of The LORD

Jul28

I was seeking an answer from the Spirit of Truth regarding how to ask of the LORD YAH my Father.  Normally, when I think of ask I think of questions, requests, and inquiries, etc.  Still, in all that I consciously know, I yearned for revelatory clarity on “how to do” these things called ask.

While I prayed for answers, my brain was gently wiggling as the scriptures were pouring in.  I recalled my meditation from a few days ago on John 15:1-8: “7IF ye abide in me, AND my words abide in you, ye shall ASK what ye WILL, AND it shall BE done unto you.  8HEREIN is my Father glorified, that ye bear much fruit; so shall ye BE my disciples.”  While chanting these scriptures, it arises in me that bearing much fruit, in this contextual manner, is produced from:

  1. two-fold abiding,
  2. asking what I will, AND
  3. it being done.

What I will should BE the same as what the Vine’s will is IF we are two-fold abiding.  In contrast, I ultimately bear no fruit IF the two-fold abiding is not my structure.  Instead, I will BE withered and burned by men.  SELAH!

So then, Luke 11:10 rose up in me in that “For every one that ‘asketh’ receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it SHALL BE opened.”  In times past, I’d studied the Greek tense of the word ‘eth.’  Today, revisiting it and its power was necessary.  The archaic suffix ‘eth’ is a noun and it is added to the end of verb words to tell you about the behavior of that word.  SELAH!  This suffix signifies a behavior of continual action known as Greek ‘perfect tense,’ vs. an action without continuation (or one-time action) known as Greek ‘aorist tense.’

With this in the forefront of my mind, I understood that for every one that continual ask (asketh) they continual receive (receiveth).  SELAH!  

However, I was yet uncertain if I understood “how to do” these things called ask.  Luke 11:8 told me exactly how to.  Importunity!  Shameless persistence!  Of the sort, this word is synonym with ‘eth.’  Again, this signifies continual action.  This is how we should pray (ask) of the LORD, Our Father, Who art in heaven – with shameless persistence.  To BE an importunate person, we must boldly persist, despite difficulties, in order to boldly receive.  Some might confuse what I’m saying with vain repetitions, much speaking, as mentioned in Matthew 6:7.  That is not the same as continual action, shameless persistence.

In the same scripture, Luke 11:8, the parable reveals that the friend, who came asking, was an importunate person.  His importunity (his persistence, his demand for help) was fervent.  Thus, his friend, who had what he needed, WILL rise and give him as many (loaves of bread) as he needeth.  The friend asked for three loaves, but it can BE deduced that the one who was giving gave more than three loaves, i.e., he give as many as he needeth.  He gave ALL that was needed to fulfill, not to merely get by for a little while.  SELAH!

Now then, although this law of reciprocity called asketh, seeketh, and knocketh responds for every one that doeth these things, it does not imply that everyone is bearing fruit.  SELAH.  You are only bearing fruit when you are two-fold abiding AND asketh.  SELAH!

Finally my brethren, this is the confidence that I have of Him, the Son of God:  that IF I ask any thing according to His will, and I will ask accordingly, He heareth me.  And IF He heareth me, and He does, whatsoever I ask, I know that I have the petitions that I desired of Him.

The LORD is my desire, I shall not want.  SELAH!

© 2015 Angela M. Smith

Compassion, I AM!

May28

Today, life events from my youth woke up as I was meditating.  I remember in my days of youth how I used to be tormented by princedoms, powers, rulers of the darkness of this world, and spiritual wickedness in high places (the soul).  Even though my parents were praying parents, I, in my own assessment, didn’t know how to respond to this torment other than self-harm.  As a child, I didn’t even know this word or what it meant.  However, the tormenter that seeks to kill, steal, and destroy knew that word and had no respect of me being a child.

The most common practice of self-harming is a cutter, which is strongly suited with poisoning.  I, on the other hand, wasn’t a cutter.  I was a self-beater, both mentally and physically, with suicidal tendencies.  My communication with myself was destructive!  Consequently, my right knee tells a story of years of abuse.  The abuse was first compulsive (driven by this inner force to do something), and then intentional (premediated, well thought out) because I saw the results of compassion that it yielded.  Compassion!

In former times, my thinking lifestyle and life’s happenings led me to obsessive and compulsive behaviors.  These behaviors stifled my life!  My thoughts were hacked as I attempted to secure things from people who didn’t have what I needed.  Behaviors that made me want to demand this, that, or the other from bankrupt resources and individuals who were not gifted to meet the demand.  These thoughts were my responsibility.  Even so, after gelling with how I had evolved considering my ways wasn’t a stress-free undertaking. Nonetheless, the onus was still on my shoulder to consider my ways.  What did I do, or was not doing, that caused my life to BE what it was?  My self-harming actions were, in reality, harming others

As I now breathe, before I BEcame whom I AM I had to BE healed of who I was.  SELAH!  Wisdom was a ray of light, schooling me in that I wasn’t created with these self-harming deficiencies.  Yet, they were born.  These shortcomings had to die!  An abortion was requisite in order for me to cuddle with salvation, healing, and miracles.  And die…they did!  Not in one wave, but in many tides over the past 30 years.  On this journey, I’ve discovered that confessing my faults concerning my thoughts dismantles the pallets of pride. .

Essentially, I had to break up with injury and cunning persuasions to collect compassion and learn how to BEcome the compassion (the Ruhamah) that I longed for.  SELAH! In the here and now, for the past 2 years, I’ve been praying for that Ruhamah.  My prayers were consistent in this manner, “LORD!  I want to BE compassion and more compassionate.  I yearn to BE that for and towards my children; for and towards the fortunate and fateful.  LORD, LET me BE compassion!”  As I set out to study what I wanted to BEcome, I learned that compassion doesn’t seek a return from others; it simply enjoys being what it is and doing what it does.  Also, I’ve learned that it is an intensely powerful word that brings life.  It has elements of mercy that runs deep to spring up like a rushing well of water.  My study revealed to me that the word Ruhamah, which is Hebrew in origin, derives from the root-verb raham, meaning to love deeply/to have mercy.  This kind of compassion is expressed in Exodus 33:19 and 2 Kings 13:23.

In order to BEcome the image of my Creator, I had to consider my ways and change my reasoning.  To live, in the likeness of my YAH, I must continuously have the mind of Christ.  My spirit self, meaning the real me, has to abound at all times lest I return to the foolishness of my natural self, i.e., the self-harming.  Of this lot in life, I have fully BEcome whom I desired to BE and I covet no longer.  I have long disowned self-harm, and I cleave to Pure Divine Love.  I AM now, compassion!

© 2015 Angela M. Smith

I Receive The Gift

May26

This morning, I was reading through some messages and came across a prayer that said, “I pray that God protects your money.  I bind Satan from diverting your money to someone else!”  (((Chuckling))) I was not surprised that this message greeted me as it was just a few hours into the morning that I had a dream of a company giving me $10,000 (testimony, law, responsibility, the completeness of order) for my Top Kids Mentoring Program.  Whereas I normally recall all the details of my dreams, I don’t recall all for this one.

Nonetheless, I do remember that the money was in cash with a check/cashier check on the top and it had a rubber band around it.  I asked the man that brought it to me, “Where did this come from?”  He replied, “A lady with a shop!  She just told me that it was yours and to make sure you got it.”  He kept trying to explain to me the kind of shop she had where you can purchase flavored drinks, health drinks, slushes, smoothies, etc.  I, in the dream didn’t know of a lady with that kind of business.  Yet, I do in this realm.  While rejoicing, and thanking God for sending me my money, His Favour, the man placed the money in my hand.  Also, I remember that it was a Saturday, late in the afternoon, and I was almost jittery about carrying that much money on me.  So, I told them I need to get to the bank and make a deposit.  I remember putting the money in my pockets and saying, “The bank is closed.  I can’t make a deposit today.”  Then, I remembered thinking how when I worked in the fast-food industry that you can make night drops (deposits) and I thought to get a deposit bag and make a night drop.

As I was walking to this door to deposit the money, I saw my mother’s face in the door window and she was yelling something.  She looked frantic!  The closer I got to her, I could see her eyes begin to roll into her head and I begin screaming, “MOM!  MOM!  PLEASE MOM!”  By the time I got to the door, she had fallen to the ground…no movement. When I woke up, it was 1:58 a.m. (Unity, Favour of God, New Beginning, and Salvation).  I wanted to cry, as my heart had been incited to fear that my mother was dead.  There were many odd things happening in this dream: the beginning I hardly remembered, and the ending causing my heart to feel uneasy.

But even now, I rejoice!  I pray, I BElieve that I receive, and I shall have this gift that is gifted to me.  I stand forgiving my debtors!  I speak increase to my money.  I command it to come forth!  LORD, whomever she is that gave to me in this dream, for I knew her not, whomever she is that gifted me, that favoured me, LET her find me!  LET her seek for me and come forth in this realm.  This gift was for the purpose that You’ve placed in my hands called Top Kids Mentoring Program, LET it come forth in this realm LORD!  I speak to her, whoever she is, I am grateful to you for your compassion towards me; you have obeyed the LORD and you shall BE perpetually blessed.  Do not doubt His leading!  He, the LORD God our Creator, has put me on your mind.  I receive the gift!

© 2015 Angela M. Smith