His Plan is My Plan!

Jun30

MY MORNING AND MIDDAY MEDITATION:  On last night, June 29th, I was committed to being in a service that I had planned to BE at for over a month.  However, the additional resources didn’t prevail for me to do what I had committed myself to doing.  I really wanted to BE there.  However, more than that, I wanted to follow what YAH desired for me.  Something different was just around the bend and I was open to receive what HE had prearranged vs. me continuously trying to MAKE my plan happen.

During a string of indecisiveness, changing my mind more than twice, a chain of events, some effective communication, and an ultimate “I can’t go” posture, I learned that this wasn’t about me going or not going.  It was about me being able to ‘make a decision and stay committed’ to that decision until the conclusion of the matter; even when the end result was, “No!  Not this time.”

For many of years, I’ve made compulsive choices; ambiguities that left my first ministry, my family, in unjustifiable bondage; whiffling in weaknesses that pacified me [selfish] and satisfied someone else’s wishes.  And, those actions threw my household out of equilibrium.  While waiting on and trusting in the LORD, who is full of light and mercy, help that is stronger than I in decision-making has come.  This help is from the ultimate Helper.  In more ways than two, help is attracted to me and I am attracted to it.  Hmm, I just found myself in the Word of YAH according to Psalm 121.  I AM, right now, that song.  Anyways, one of the most impeccable ingredients about help is that while it comes to help, it also gets helped.  Insecurities of the past are kept at bay and healing has come to help’s aid.  We are helpers of the war, one to another.  SELAH!

Thus, BLESSED is the LORD, Who abides in me and me in Him.  He has caused me to BE open to His Guidance, His Will, and His way.  Despite the fact that I didn’t accomplish what I had planned, I freely promenaded the path that the day had initiated for me.  Every hour was beckoning me; waiting on me to embrace its “decreed and declared” design.  All I had to do was rise up to what already was…and I did that!  I and my lads met new friends; had a night filled with great family fun and authentic hilarious laughter.  My entire soul was flourishing (feeling giddy just thinking about it); as there had been a part of my essence on lock down due to life’s episodes.  I even explored the depth of my energy and karate chopped a board (((SO AMAZING)))!

My current stance: I AM pleased with YAH’s plan for me, and my plan is to follow His plan until the end” (Smith, Angela M. 2012)!

The Beauty of Building

Jun28

The foundation is the first thing built when constructing a building: this building, that building, any building that you are building to abide in i.e. relationship building, spiritual building, emotional building, ministry building, business building, every building.  Not only is the foundation the FIRST thing built, it is the MOST IMPORTANT thing to build.  And, it must BE built with a resilient truth, full of integrity, for the stability of the ENTIRE structure.  The foundation can’t BE built to benefit only one part of the structure, the relationship.  That’s scheming and selfishness.

When establishing your relationship building foundation, have you factored in the soil (soul) conditions, climatic (emotions, sensitivity) conditions, natural (psychological and spiritual) hazards, and the tools needed to righteously deal with the nearby hills, slopes, rivers and waters?

If it has been revealed that the land has some soul conditions that are weak, and have the tendency to slip here and there, you need to build a slab or raft foundation.  This kind of foundation covers the entire area of what is BEing constructed and will help you remain afloat on shifting souls.  You have to “continuously” pour the concrete Word of YAH in this foundation; and the iron that sharpeneth iron should BE inserted to avoid cracking of the concrete.  I strongly advise the skirting of the Holy Spirit so that the entire slab doesn’t slide away due to the shifting soul.  SELAH!

In addition, soul conditions that are causing other problems, like convulsing mindsets and landfills (areas of the soul containing buried waste), or tainted water (spirit) needs another type of foundation called pile foundation.  Concrete columns of YAH’s Word are piled about 13ft BElow the foundation’s surface soul (the weak soul).  This is done to prevent rebellion against that which is good.  Also, it is accomplished in a series of diggings and it is plowed deep to the nub of the soul condition (the spirit).  Based upon how desperate the building situation is, this pile foundation can BE precast (ready-made) or set up on site.

Deception, disguise, distortion, flimflamming and waffling people at the foundation of a relationship doesn’t and will not EVER make good for stable walls and frame.  Even when dismantling and starting over with truth and honesty in the same soil is prime, some, just some, will not exert the tenacity, nor do they have the desire, to tear down what has been built on a deceptive foundation.  They’d rather move onward to fresh soil and build a firm, righteous and stable foundation.  SELAH!

And so, I’ve discovered The Beauty of Building.  We can all decide the foundation we want to build on BEfore we build on it.  This decision will ultimately make our structure to BE one of two things, a Solid Rock or Sinking Sand.  SELAH!  ©27 June 2012, Angela M. Smith

Morning Meditation: Marriage

Apr4

Today I pray against the evil that comes to kill, steal, and destroy marriages and relationships that are separated and seeking restoration.  I command adultery to go and put its face in the crease of the corner.  You are unwanted fabric and are not welcomed in the image of YAH.

I speak to the chosen of the LORD; get your house in order!  LET your old relationships die; LET them BE fully dried up before you seek after another.  STAND STILL until you have taken care of the old; LET not the new wine fail because you tried to fit it in an old bottle.  I pray that current relationships consummate with marriage because it is right and it is honorable; LET them all remain FAITHFUL to one another, engulfed in integrity, so that the sheets of their souls and private chambers are not spoiled and stained.

Father Elohim, blow Your sustaining wind NOW.  LET us inhale Your new mercy, it is our life!  In the name of the LORD Yeshua Who is the chosen people’s bridegroom.  Surely this is done.  ALLELUIA! © March 12, 2012

I Want To Pray Over You And Bless You!

Apr4

It’s Sunday, April 1, 2012 and for the first time ever I had a dream with Bishop T. D & Serita Jakes in it early this morning.  It startled me because of all the years I’ve listened to his ministry, I’ve never dreamed of them or about them.  Specifically, Bishop Jakes approached me and said, “My God girl!   Where have you been hiding?  Your gift needs to be heard.  Make sure you see me before you leave because I want to pray over you AND bless you.”

In this dream, we were in a big warehouse building where a lot of construction was going on.  They were transforming the building into something, but I couldn’t tell what it was.  I was getting ready to leave and Lady Serita Jakes begin to speak to me about the children.  She was rebuking the people who were scolding the children who had been abused.  She had such great passion for abused children and compelled the people to not think evil of them because of their pain.  Then she reminded me to go see the Bishop so that he could prayover you AND bless you.

When I woke up this morning, again, it’s Sunday, April 1, 2012, I tuned in to The Potter’s House Online Service.  Streaming live was the consecretion for Pastor Patrick Winfield, Jr., The Potter’s House of Fort Worth, TX.  LO and BEHOLD, they started showing pictures of a building that was under construction.  The building was an old Kroger’s, I believe, that was being transformed into a sanctuary.

I was so overwhelmed and started weeping, “LORD, what am I supposed to do with this revelation?”  With all my heart, I believe that this was confirmation that I am supposed to BE connected to The Potter’s House in some manner.  I don’t know why the LORD showed me them in this dream and then confirmed that there is a building under construction.  And, I, I am praying that the eyes of the Bishop’s spirit lay hold these words and he sends for me, to do as he wanted to do, “I want to pray over you AND bless you.”

SELAH!

How Long Shall This Continue To Be The Story?

Apr4

Upon reading this article about a gospel music industry songstress who is pregnant and not married, I begin to reflect how I, as an unmarried woman and psalmist of the Word, have learned to SUBMIT to YAH, RESIST the ways of the world, and REFRAIN.  Resisting is LABORIOUS!  It is not easy to resist; but it’s right!  It can BE [and normally is] painful to deny your body what it was created to do naturally i.e. sexual communion.

Sometimes, if not most of the time, discipline is the hardest task for many of the anointed ones.  Thus, we feel like throwing in the towel [and sometimes do].  We stop RESISTING because RESISTING is hard work; we get tired of going against the grain of temptation.  However, the outcome of victory over the temptation outweighs the outcome of giving in.  To RESIST and REFRAIN will save your mind and soul from the torment that comes with casually giving your soul and body away.

By the way, I am first partaker of everything I say.  #TeamResistandRefrain

To me, her saying, “I MADE a mistake and I fell,” is a cop-out.  People know what they are MAKING BEfore they fall.  They took time to plan, craft, schedule, produce, work up to, invite and incite that mistake.  All the while of contemplating, there was ample time to renege, to say, “NO!  STOP!  This is NOT the way for me!”  Thus, when they make statements like hers, we, who are of the LORD, are compelled to forgive.  We forgive because now WE KNOW.  What they were MAKING [their mistake] is now exposed.

What if she didn’t get pregnant?  What if the preacher didn’t get caught sexing the young boy, or get caught in the hotel room with his lover?  What if the bishop didn’t get caught doping up his veins and nostrils?  Would it have still been a mistake?  It only BEcomes a mistake when what they have been producing in private is manifested in public.

I can hear the double-dealers now, “Church people are too judgmental.  We just need to pray for them!”  Well, I thank YAH that I’m not a church people.  And if all we needed to do was pray, where was prayer when the mistake was brewing and concocted?  But now, when things are exposed, all we need to do is just pray?

Is there not enough of the gospel in us that we can sing and preach and speak in tongues and holler and dance and yet that same gospel doesn’t keep us?  I thought it [the word of YAH, the Gospel of Yeshua] was “keeping power?”  What’s wrong with us [who carry this gospel] that sin prevails all so frequently?

Are not the feet of them who carry the gospel beautiful?  Her repenting, purging, and transparency are commendable.   Nonetheless, the integrity to “do right the first time,” to RESIST and REFRAIN is even more admirable.  It is this kind of uprightness that makes our feet beautiful.

There is no doubt that the LORD rain on the just and the unjust, and there equally is no doubt that there is an anointing up on her.  What I’ve noticed on my journey is that people tend to believe that an anointing is only up on those who are members of the body of Christ.  Not so!  Just look around you.  Someone was anointed to discovery electricity, another anointed to make Apple and MAC Computers, and others anointed to BE trillionaires.

So, the gifts of YAH are without repentance.   In this walk of the gospel, there are some who are riding off the obtained mercies of us who are living righteous; those of us who have MADE a conscious decision to RESIST and REFRAIN (Romans 11:28-31).   SELAH!

Tell me this, what has happened to songs [testimonies] like, “Man, I WANTED to sin.  My flesh was burning and I WAS on the edge of dousing my fire.  I WANTED to, BUT I MADE up [produced, crafted, planned in] my mind to honor the LORD that I love and sing about?”  Why can’t we sing the word to our self; decree, declare, and command to our self that, “WE WILL put off the way of the world and the world’s way of thinking.  If we can’t contain ourselves, LET US marry.  And if we ain’t talking marriage, LET US RESIST and REFRAIN!”

I started praying weeks ago when I decided to audition for Sunday’s Best on April 21, 2012.  One of the things I’ve kept in the forefront of my prayers was LORD make me ready.  I am not yielding now to temptation, I just BE dog-gone if I’m going to LET the entertainment industry, gospel music industry, or any other industry cause me to surrender to ways that are not of the LORD.  I have STRONG SUPPORTERS; people I know how to BE, and am, accountable to including my children.  How many parents are accountable to their children?  SELAH!   I promise you, it can keep us unmarried people out of a WHOLE lot of sin.  SELAH!

In closing, it’s both sad and true that many in this walk have grave issues that they need to BE delivered from.  Many of them are consuming strong drinks to make it through “a show” or “another gig” as some call it.  Many of them are high on alcohol and drugs while entertaining [ministering].  And the audience buys into the hype and gyration yelling, “HALLELUJAH” behind the antics of addicts.   SELAH!

How long shall this BE the stories that we hear?  How long?

What Constitutes Cheating?

Mar6

Pastor Marvin Sapp asked this relationship question on Facebook, and I quote, “What constitutes “CHEATING?”  Is it just sex from a biblical perspective or more?”

The first thing cognizance was dishonesty.  The moment a person IS dishonest, about anything and everything they are dishonest about, is the moment they have begun the journey of cheating.   Why are people dishonest or why do they cheat?  They do it because they are selfish individuals.  They are hoarders of greed.  SELAH!  This thing called “cheating” BEcomes their lifestyle and it is all entrenched in selfishness [it’s all about their desires, interests, rules and regulations, and how they want to attain them].  When they consistently cheat they BEcome cheaters; when they consistently lie, they BEcome liars; when they consistently deceive, they BEcome deceivers.  Cheaters are habitual Svengalis’ (charmers, manipulators), and they have no good purpose.  As it is, there is no good purpose in cheating.

Can you imagine Yeshua the Christ cheating the cross, or cheating the woman at the well?  Can you imagine YAH cheating His creation, saying, “All this I’ve created is good, I’ll make something bad?”  Or better yet, can you imagine YAH cheating Who He was?  Love!  Love can’t and won’t cheat on or against itself, because love is not selfish.  There are elements of love that doesn’t seek its own and it thinks no evil.  And, without love you will undoubtedly BEcome a cheater; selfish in all your ways, a narcissistic.  That’s right, cheating leads to personality disorders.

The lifestyle of cheating makes a person think they are worth the things they are dishonest about.  To mention, cheaters are exceedingly unstable; so unstable that they cheat on themselves.  SELAH!  Now, that’s a problem when you cheat on yourself and then try to convince yourself that you didn’t.  What is there to gain while losing your soul?  Cheaters [charlatans, tricksters, double-dealers, and FAITHLESS people] seek to BE grand and will do whatever is necessary to acquire that grandiose posture through lies, white lies, black lies, and, well, extra lies.  They pursue all they desire from multiple sources, resources, and people.

Thus, cheating is far more than, and is not rooted in or limited to, sex from a biblical perspective.  Cheating is foundational in the mind before it is manifested through the gates of the penis, vagina, eyes, ears, and hands.

© 2012 Angela M. Smith

Change is Changing Me!

Mar4

I’ve always been self-conscious about my hair after being told years in and years out that “You have “BAD” hair,” or “You look like a man with short hair.”  So, I started a natural hair process in January 2010 and it has been a slow transition to healthy.  The crown of my hair badly damaged and it appears that nothing I’ve tried has helped.  I can moisturize it EVERYDAY and it does well for a while then it relapse.

Today, I told the hair therapist that I was ready to get a relaxer again or shave it off because it wasn’t getting as healthy as I THOUGHT it should.  She begins to tell me that I have to BE patient.  Previously she had told me that my hair is actually healthier than the first time I came to her three months ago.  I immediately reflected on my meditation about being patient and not complaining about the passing of time for change to manifest.  I smiled at myself because I recognize my complaining.  I was making excuses as to why I should do something different than what I’m doing i.e. I don’t like the way it looks, it’s damaged at the crown, it’s not growing fast enough, the style doesn’t last all week, etc.

I thought about the spiritual work that was right now taking place to rid myself of all the voices that told me all those years that my hair was BAD.  What I started two years ago has been working against 17 years of insecurities and negative language about my hair.  I meditate 2-4 hours a day, but have never thought to direct my attention towards my lack of confidence concerning my mane.

YAH said that he made me in His image and that I [the sum total of who I am] was GOOD.  David, the Song (Psalmist), even declared that I, a Song (Psalmist), am fearfully and wonderfully made and that the LORD’s works are marvelous!  And that fearfully, wonderfully, and marvelous works includes my hair.  Change is changing me and hair.  I must continue in this process of transformation.  Thus, I am patiently waiting for the spectacular presentation of my illustrious tresses.

© February 24, 2012

Relax and Rock With Me

Mar3

On last night, March 2, 2012, while heading south on US 31 from Kokomo to Indianapolis I begin to listen to the Holy Spirit speak through the clouds and wind.  Early today, we were under Tornado watch.  About 1pm to 1:30pm it got really dark outside.  There was rain, wind, hail; then, there was sunshine until approximately 5pm.   A group of us were going to Indianapolis to support the minstrel from our fellowship who was ministering at a revival.

The winds BEcame boisterous; literally moving the 15-passenger van from one lane to the next.  Trucks were flying pass us [driving fast] like they were not even in the path of the wind; I saw two cars weaving in their lane.  However, not one, and I mean not one, other vehicle in front of us were swerving from lane to lane.  I watched Prophet Kenner as he gripped the wheel to control the van; and he’d occasionally take a hand off the wheel to stretch and move his fingers about.   I said to him something like this, “If you relax and go with the flow it will BE easier for you.”  Then the Holy Spirit began to speak to me.  It was at precisely 6:20pm – 6:25pm when these words came forth:

“Rock with the flow of my breath, for so shall the power of your blessings BE.  You will be running over with blesses.  It will appear to overwhelm you, but just rock with it; they are yours.  And even when my breath breathes lightly, the flow is yet carrying you.  Relax and Rock With Me.  I got this!  And because you abide in me you can handle this, the power of my blessings.”

When we got to the service I thoroughly washed my hands and anointed them with oil.  I then anointed the prophet’s hands for I knew they [his hands] had warred [fought] well to hold on during the storm.  I also knew that in his holding on, the Holy Spirit was his help in that his hands didn’t “slip from the wheel.”   SELAH!  After I anointed his hands, my hands started to itch.  I knew at that moment that there was an energy transfer, a new energy flowing, and I needed to BE conscious of the atmosphere.   I know that I have healing hands, but I’ve never experienced that before.  I wholly believe that this energy transfer was directly related to the flow of energy that was already passing through the wind of YAH.  ALLELUIA!

The breath of YAH was thrusting a strong blessing over us at the same time that the wind in the air was exhaling over the highway.  Just as we have to “grip the wheel” to stay in control of the vehicle in tempestuous weather, we have to likewise “grip the Word” of YAH to stay in control of His blessings given to us.  Many times people abuse the blessings of the LORD when they let go of or abandon His Word; when they “slip from the wheel.”

I encourage you all to set your anchor and grip the blessings of the LORD that are soaring over and around you.  Don’t abandon your position; instead, relax and rock with the flow of His wind.

Shalom!

Genesis 2

Mar1

And, in His image, God created me [the man] and ‘they’ [male and female] were created and called ‘them’ in me [the man] that God created.  God formed me from the dust of the ground and breathed into my nostrils the breath of life.

And, I became a living soul; and the Lord God said, ‘It is not good for me to be alone [for me to be visible without myself the help meet].  Therefore, I will make [manifest and visible] for him, his help meet [a perfect fit for him, from within him].  So, the Lord caused me to fall into a deep sleep.

While I was sleeping, God took one of my ribs and then closed me up.  And the rib that God took from me was called woman.  As it was, God had already created her [my rib, my woman, my help meet] in me.  Consequently, God took me [the help meet] out of me [the man] so that I may behold myself [my rib, my woman, my help meet].

And when I looked upon the beauty and wonderful creation of me [called woman, the help meet that was in me and is now living with and beside me], I spoke life to myself [the woman] and proclaimed…

…THIS IS NOW [at this instant, without delay] bone of my bone, flesh of my flesh, blood of my blood, marrow of my marrow, heart of my heart, soul of my soul, spirit of my spirit, love of my love, because she was taken out of me.

We [the man, the rib, the woman, the help meet] were naked, and I and my self [her, my wife] were not ashamed.  She is me, I am her; we are male and female; we are them and they; we are he and her; we together are ‘One’!

© April 7, 2007, Angela M. Smith

Your Well Will Never Run Dry!

Feb28

Good morning good people…

On Sunday, February 26, 2012, while worshiping, Prophet Kenner told the people to “give God His yes” and we did according to the instructions.  The response of the Holy Spirit to me was this, “Your WELL WILL never run dry!”  After prayer on last night, Monday, February 27, 2012 my well was freely flowing and before I got home and to work this morning it was yet streaming.

I went to see a client, not expecting or asking for a payment on the services I’m providing, but they reached in their pocket and paid me with all they had.  I didn’t hold on to it either, but I cheerfully sowed into good ground with  1/2 of it.  Then, this morning as I was on my way to work, I was praying and thinking about Josh’s trip to DC in May.  I was planning out in my head to pay the other 1/2 of the balance ($332.50) on March 15th.

Back in December 2011, I remember sharing how the school had paid for 1/2 of his fees with a scholarship, and then a lady from NC had sent me a certified check for $400, which covered more than 1/2 of the balance.   Well, between then and now I hadn’t paid the balance.  When I got to work this morning, I had a message to call the school principal.   She told me that they had given a scholarship to a student who made some “not so good choices,” and those choices forfeited his scholarship.  The student had been working with his father to earn his 1/2  of the trip fees; but because of his behavior, the parents told the student that he had to pay for another students trip with the money he worked for and earned.

Well, the school, again, chose Josh.   The father had brought the money in and my Josh was given another scholarship with 1/2 the money that somebody else worked for.  His trip is now “paid in full.”  

I am “wholly persuaded” that Psalm 84:11-12 is full of life; LET us LET it live in us.  I am “fully persuaded” that Psalm 34:9-11 is alive; LET us fear the LORD.  I am “utterly persuaded” that Luke 6:38 is absolute; LET us BE-come the Word of God!  

I am “sum total persuaded” that “your WELL WILL never run dry!”  Alleluia!

Shalom with great love and joy~