I Receive The Gift

May26

This morning, I was reading through some messages and came across a prayer that said, “I pray that God protects your money. I bind Satan from diverting your money to someone else!” (((Chuckling))) I was not surprised that this message greeted me as it was just a few hours into the morning that I had a dream of a company giving me $10,000 (testimony, law, responsibility, the completeness of order) for my Top Kids Mentoring Program. Whereas I normally recall all the details of my dreams, I don’t recall all for this one.

Nonetheless, I do remember that the money was in cash with a check/cashier check on the top and it had a rubber band around it. I asked the man that brought it to me, “Where did this come from?” He replied, “A lady with a shop! She just told me that it was yours and to make sure you got it.” He kept trying to explain to me the kind of shop she had where you can purchase flavored drinks, health drinks, slushes, smoothies, etc. I, in the dream didn’t know of a lady with that kind of business. Yet, I do in this realm. While rejoicing, and thanking God for sending me my money, His Favour, the man placed the money in my hand. Also, I remember that it was a Saturday, late in the afternoon, and I was almost jittery about carrying that much money on me. So, I told them I need to get to the bank and make a deposit. I remember putting the money in my pockets and saying, “The bank is closed. I can’t make a deposit today.” Then, I remembered thinking how when I worked in the fast-food industry that you can make night drops (deposits) and I thought to get a deposit bag and make a night drop.

As I was walking to this door to deposit the money, I saw my mother’s face in the door window and she was yelling something. She looked frantic! The closer I got to her, I could see her eyes begin to roll into her head and I begin screaming, “MOM! MOM! PLEASE MOM!” By the time I got to the door, she had fallen to the ground…no movement. When I woke up, it was 1:58 a.m. (Unity, Favour of God, New Beginning, and Salvation). I wanted to cry, as my heart had been incited to fear that my mother was dead. There were many odd things happening in this dream: the beginning I hardly remembered, and the ending causing my heart to feel uneasy.

But even now, I rejoice! I pray, I BElieve that I receive, and I shall have this gift that is gifted to me. I stand forgiving my debtors! I speak increase to my money. I command it to come forth! LORD, whomever she is that gave to me in this dream, for I knew her not, whomever she is that gifted me, that favoured me, LET her find me! LET her seek for me and come forth in this realm. This gift was for the purpose that You’ve placed in my hands called Top Kids Mentoring Program, LET it come forth in this realm LORD! I speak to her, whoever she is, I am grateful to you for your compassion towards me; you have obeyed the LORD and you shall BE perpetually blessed. Do not doubt His leading! He, the LORD God our Creator, has put me on your mind. I receive the gift!

Parents STOP Bullying Your Children!

May25

On last night as I was picking up my lads from ‘fun with friends’ in Russiaville, I was listening to a radio show called ‘Fanning the Flame with Pastor Dave Engbrecht’ of Nappanee, IN. He was teaching on the very thing that I’d shared with a dear mother on yesterday afternoon about parenting. During my morning meditation, I was recalling many of the valuable words of nourishment that he was imparting. It just now came to me that some parents have a tendency to bully, oppress, their children into doing things that will make them (the parent) happy. They will often develop a rod of control and deem it to BE a rod of correction. We good parents desire what is best for our sons and daughters. And that desire, at times, is capable of leading us to imprisoning the fruit of our wombs unaware. Protection! We want to protect them from decisions that will lead to unwarranted impoverishment and ineptness in life.

However, we can’t protect them by controlling them. SELAH!

I recall the numerous times that I’ve laid this before my own lads, “You have choices. You can do this thing or you can do that thing. If you disobey these are the rewards; if you obey these are the rewards. Now, you choose which reward you want.” Sometimes, just sometimes, they choose a reward they really don’t want (they disobey), but I have to BE the maturing parent and continue teaching them as they grow. This doesn’t mean that I don’t or won’t get frustrated or upset. I do! Nonetheless, as I grow up with my lads I mature in my parenting methods. So must we all! We can’t expect our young adult children to respond well to us if we are still parenting them as if they were adolescents…in both age and mind. SELAH!

If we do not improve (mature), we ultimately drive a wedge between us, and we create a contentious relationship. You know, that’s just like the enemy of evil to come in and create breaks of discord to ascend and live. However, we who are parents IN the LORD are the ones whom the children are commanded to obey. Then, they are commanded to obey parents in all things because it is pleasing to the LORD. Their obedience is for the LORD’s satisfaction not ours. SELAH! Thus, when they disobey we have to LET the way of the LORD discipline them through us, not us disciplining them because we are dissatisfied of their turning away.

In my April 28, 2015 journal, I beseeched parents to repent. As I’ve said it then, I say it again, parents we have to repent! Repent for our lack of understanding; repent for ruling with the rod of control (our emotions) and not with the rod of correction as the scripture have taught us. LET us turn from provoking our children to wrath. LET us not incarcerate our sons and daughters for the fault of their ways while in training. Imagine if our parents would have held us captive and not let us live? We all have gotten an “F” in something, yet we all have had the opportunities to make good that grade. LET us love our sons and daughters like YAH loves us; giving them the same opportunity to make good the grade. He loves us so that He saw us polluted in our blood (our sins, our own righteousness, which is as filthy rags), and He commanded us to live.

Parents LET us do our part!

And even if our children make the choice to not do their part,we must propel in parenting IN the LORD.

BE Benevolent!

May22

This word has been scrolling across my head for three days. I’ve heard this word, particularly in Christian ministries, that are called ‘churches’, and they have what is called Benevolence Funds.

The origin of the word and the foundation of its meaning are well-wishing; organized to do good things for other people; kind and generous. When people are in dire need, many of them expect the religious businesses to do good things for them; to help them up from the mire. After all, this is what many of us have been taught that these ministry businesses are supposed to do. At times disconcerting, but yet truthfully true, these businesses are not ‘organized’ to BE BENEVOLENT. This is not their mission and vision. SELAH!

Thus, some will establish non-profit organizations to provide a service to assist you, i.e., halfway houses funded by philanthropists and world agencies, child care services funded by state programs, homes for teenage parents and domestic violence victims funded by foundations and the criminal justice system, and counseling centers for those who are addicted to various vices paid for by your insurance company. I am no against these entities, because they do assist people in great manifestations. On the other hand thought, many of these established ‘charitable’ organizations require you to invest (co-pays, sliding scale fees, payment plans, etc.) in their generosity towards and for you.

BUT HOW IS IT PERFECTLY CHARITABLE IF THEY ARE SEEING A RETURN?

I do believe that people should BE BENEVOLENT. And, I believe they should BE this with wisdom and without expectation from anyone except the LORD. So, with resolution that is built on the Chief Cornerstone, in this manner I encourage you (those of you who truly need assistance): do not hold these ministry businesses responsible to help you or hold them captive when they are not charitable towards you. They are simply not organized (set-up, established, instituted) to do that. Pray that the LORD directs you to the ones who are organized (structured, well-regulated, and inherently able) to GIVE, to do good things for you, and to BE kind and generous to you. Your investment will be to owe them nothing but to love them.

To BE BENEVOLENT is a lifestyle. Today… I choose, again, to BE. SELAH!

Habit by Repetition

May5

This morning, as I lay in bed, I was recapturing this ODD dream I was having about a man who needed help in his repossession (reclamation, restoration, recovery) business. I had recommended someone else for the job, but he just kept on telling me about what he needed. He had it all laid out, i.e., the area I’d work in, the compensation, the benefits, etc. and I still referred him to another person who I deemed to BE better skilled to do the work. As I laid there I was praying and thinking, “LORD! Something just doesn’t seem right. Show me what this is…this THING that I’m feeling this morning. (Very sluggish) Why is this presence here?”

When I took my Jordan to school today, Josh’s teacher greeted me at the car and said, “Did Josh tell you he passed his test yesterday?” I, thinking she was talking about the ECA test, told her, “He told me he had to take the ECA test yesterday (in my head thinking, they don’t get those pass or fail status’ right away), but he didn’t tell me he passed.” She was looking in the back seat to see if he was in the car and I responded to her look, “He’s at home today; not feeling well. But, I’m praying he gets to feeling better so that he can at least come to school this afternoon and take the other portion of the ECA.” She replies, “I mean he passed his math test with at 93%.” We both giggled and cheered him on in his absence as the superintendent watched us with a smile. This is a big to do for us. As it is, my Josh is a resuscitated baby and because of such there is a slight disconnect between his hearing and articulation.

When he was diagnosed with CAPD (central auditory processing disorder) and ADHD, I, as a parent, had to BE diligent in making sure he had all the necessary tools to succeed in the classroom, where he spends majority of his time. Two of the most important tools were my parental advocacy (his wellbeing is my priority) and making sure the teachers were held accountable in doing their part of successfully teaching. I have REGULAR (like going to the bathroom regular) conversations with his teachers, coaches, and his speech therapist. I get weekly updates on his and Jordan’s progress, missed homework assignments, test grades, misconduct if there is any, and etc. They send me emails, text messages; they call me and greet me very heartily in the mornings. As a parent, it was my intention to establish this kind of relationship with them being that they are imparting into the lives of my sons up to 12 hours a day sometimes.

Anyway, as I was rejoicing over Josh’s victory my prayers had changed. “LORD, I appreciate the teacher for her attention to my son and her method of teaching. I’m thankful for her diligence in maintaining her part of our plan. She was consistent; she was repetitive in reviewing and moving on; recapping again and moving forward; repeating step-by-step and progressing. She didn’t let him fail. SELAH! This is a good morning report!” In conjunction with this, my son didn’t want to fail so he too had to maintain his part of our plan. He had to develop a new behavior (habit) that complemented what I and the teacher were doing. He had to BEcome habitual in his actions of studying; reviewing and recapping; repeating and redoing. That behavior only comes by way of repetition.” When I wake up in the morning, I pray. I don’t go to the bathroom first, or eat breakfast first. Before I leave my room, I pray for 30 minutes. This behavior only came by way of diligent repetition.

As I was driving back into town rejoicing and reviewing all the involved components that greeted me this morning, the Holy Spirit presented me the answer to my morning prayer at precisely 7:32 a.m.: HABIT BY REPETITION! Many things flooded my mind as I pondered upon those three words. However, these things resounded:

(1) The LORD YAH is habitual. His Spirit is chronic (as in long-lasting, always present); consistent unto righteousness. Even when the LORD does a new thing, the THING is new, but the LORD YAH changes not and the LORD Yeshua is the same yesterday, to day, and for ever. SELAH!

(2) And, because my confession is that I abide in Him and His Words abide in me, then I too must BE habitual, consistent unto righteousness, in doing A NEW THING! This new thing for me is called REPOSSESSING. I must repossess (recover, reclaim, regain, recoup, return to) my good sleeping and resting habits. I do well for a few weeks, but then my behavior changes and I form a habit of staying up late and getting up early. This is vain (of no value) and is not righteousness. My sleep gravely misses me and I’ve been neglecting him. I’ve not been kind to him; restricting his quality time with me. The benefits that come with me LETTING sleep rest up on me are considerable. Sleep! Forgive me for abusing you; for depriving you of your time. Release me from the debt that I’ve brought up on you and myself. SELAH!

(3) Also, I must repossess (recovery, reclaim, regain, recoup) dominion. YAH said, LET US make man in OUR image and after OUR likeness; and LET them HAVE (possess and retain) dominion. The only way for me to REPOSSESS these things is to change my Habit by Repetition! I must begin a NEW procedure, a NEW routine of living. The LORD YAH is fulfilling His part of the plan. When I do my part of the plan, He is not going to LET me fail!

A few hours later, at 10:08 a.m., I was speaking a message and the word I used was translated as Shimano. This is no mistake! The Spirit of the LORD is giving me the power to get wealth. I’ve never said that word before in my life and have never seen that word before. Regardless, it is a real word and a prosperous word. I looked it up and Shimano, headquartered in Sakai, Japan, is a multinational manufacturing company of cycling components, fishing tackle, and rowing equipment. Now, this is the second time my translation has picked up a foreign accent in my voice, and they were two different accents. With this happening, I know what I must do. REPOSSESS! © 2015 Angela M. Smith

Parents! REPENT!

Apr28

PARENTS! REPENT! – As a mother, and a parent, it makes me cheerful to hear others acknowledge that I have trained my sons well in the LORD, and that they are maturing and will be successful in this life God has given them. However, and even better, my soul rejoices when my DNA says, “MOM! Thank you for teaching me and raising me like you have. I don’t need to change to please people because I am RIGHT just like I AM!” I enjoyed my one-on-one time with my Jordan. However, it seems like when it is just him and I, I end up shopping and he ends up missing his brother.

Nonetheless, just as we did in ages past, some of us 30, 40, 50 years ago, our children and their peers are experiencing budding life changes; changes that will either bring death or life more abundantly. I’m reminded how the LORD prayed for Simon – Peter – because Satan desired to HAVE him for the purpose of sifting him as wheat. He prayed that his FAITH fail not. In this day, Satan still has that desire toward our Simon’s!

PARENTS! To those of you who believe in God, His Way, and His Truth I plead with you to teach your sons and daughters according to such. As it is in this very hour, we are 12 letters away from becoming like the WORLD when we forsake the WORD of the YAH! SELAH! Study so that you can impart revelatory wisdom and knowledge into their minds! Study to shew yourself approved unto God; RIGHTLY dividing the Word of TRUTH! I implore you…don’t put you and your family to shame status!

I beg of you, PARENTS, REPENT for your lack of understanding and your miscarriage of effectively communicating with the fruit of your womb. I request of you, PARENTS, to seek forgiveness from your sons and daughters whom you’ve injured with your wrongful conduct and your threatening language. I urge you, PARENTS, to turn from the world’s way of speaking and acting. Unlearn the world’s language and put the language of God in your mouth!

MOTHERS and FATHERS! I demand of you to STOP confusing the sinner child by living one way in public and yet another way in private. CEASE from admiring them in society and vilifying them at home. PARENTS! Terminate your two-timing double-minded canons! Rid yourself of that intimidation spirit! I say to you again, REPENT! Apologize to your sons and daughters for betraying them; for not justly fathering them; and for not selflessly mothering them! REPENT and commend your offspring for doing well; and chastise them with love!

PARENTS ARISE! BE blameless with your sons and daughters! Give them honor when honor is due them! PRAY for them and hug them with ongoing embraces of comfort and compassion! DRAW them to uprightness with Pure Divine Love! And, LET lovingkindness BE the lodestone unto salvation! ALLELUIA!

The Presence of the LORD!

Aug16

The very first time that the presence of the LORD was mentioned or made known is in Genesis 3:8 i.e. and they HEARD the voice of the LORD WALKING in the garden; and they hid themselves from the PRESENCE of the LORD. A significant thing I noticed here is the VOICE of the LORD was WALKING. Adam and Eve HEARD His voice WALKING. This very thing reminds me of the scores of times that even though we don’t SEE our parents speaking the instructions they have pounded in to us time after time, we can still hear their words, their guidance, and their speech walking around in our heads. We see them not, but we do HEAR them toddling i.e. walking and treading about our minds; coming up to consciousness.

In this first take, the presence of the LORD was “heard” and “recognized.” Adam and Eve knew the LORD was there; they hid themselves. Today, it is intensely insinuated that we only know that the LORD is present BEcause we can FEEL His presence i.e. many worship leaders say phrases like, “Can’t You FEEL His presence? He is here!” Hardly ever, if at all, do they say, “Do you hear His voice? He is here!” SELAH! This is not to say that we are not able to feel His presence, but majority of the time we are not feeling the presence of the LORD, we are experiencing feelings or emotions from a situation. Adam and Eve FELT a certain way and had a particular emotion when they HEARD the voice of the LORD walking. That emotion was shame; thus, they hid themselves. IN the BEginning, hearing His voice indicated that He was present. Also, I do say, in this particular scripture, Genesis 3, that the atmosphere was conducive for the presence of the LORD.

Something was done for Him to make His presence known to them. What was it? In this instance, Adam and Eve yielded to the deception of the serpent. That yielding is what brought about what I call “The Interrogation and Sentencing” (Genesis 3:9-24). Adam and his wife were not worshipping the LORD when He made His presence known. They were disobeying Him. Even Jonah, when he HEARD the voice of the LORD, disobeyed and fled to a place the LORD did not send him. The scripture didn’t say Jonah felt the presence of the LORD and fled; he heard the voice. So, based upon this truth, worshiping the LORD is not the only way to invoke the presence of the LORD. Disobedience is a way too.

As Worship Leaders, those who lead the congregation into a posture of devotion unto the LORD, we can usher in i.e. announce, state, declare, decree, pronounce that the presence of the LORD is amongst us. This is also bringing an awareness i.e. “I hear the voice of the LORD…He is here!” SN: Often, when we do hear the voice of the LORD we will sing it. Others of us, who are minstrels will play it. And, there are others of us with a scribal anointing who will record it i.e. write it down and/or speak it. However, each individual parishioner is responsible for hearing His voice and KNOWING that the LORD is present amongst them. Not just BEcause we said He is, but BEcause they heard His voice.

We, Worship Leaders, are responsible for “leading” the people i.e. guiding them, teaching them, and showing them how to worship the LORD. Sadly, many worship leaders hassle the people i.e. “C’mon PRAISE the LORD! How dare you come in to the house of the LORD and not PRAISE Him! C’mon church; get with us. This ain’t no dead church. Look at your neighbor and say, “NEIGHBOR!” When we do those things, we’re not leading (teaching) the people, we are mostly harassing them.

Those of us who are “The True Worshippers” must and do worship the LORD in Spirit and in Truth. Any others who desire to BE the true worshippers have to BE taught, just like we were taught. I’ve heard many ministers say that “worship is a lifestyle.” If that BE true, and I BElieve that it is, then that lifestyle has to BE taught; it has to BE practiced. Likewise, I’ve heard some say, “Enter into the presence of the LORD.” However, entering into the presence of the LORD would BE very difficult to do if a person doesn’t know that the LORD is there i.e. they’ve not heard His voice or don’t even know what His voice sounds like.

He Loves Me AS IS!

Jul21

While at lunch on Friday, yesterday, a wife came in with her two daughters, her husband, her mother and her husband’s parents. She needed to change the baby daughter’s diaper and her husband told her to take the other daughter as well to use the potty. Headed to the bathroom, already, the wife stopped, turned around and firmly exclaimed how she couldn’t take both of them BY HERSELF. Her tone was loud and demanding, and her look was like, “YOU ARE going to help me!” I held my head down and whispered to my love that her behavior and speech towards her husband was not acceptable; that she should not speak to him like that (and in public).

I was burning to get to her and stated to him and my lads that I was going in the bathroom to have a talk with this wife. They nervously laughed and told me not to do it – PLEASE! My lads were certain that I was going to have one of my “nice and kind conversations.” So, my love placed his hand on my thigh as a gesture to keep me from getting up, in which I had already pushed my chair back to get up. He was basically pleading for me to not to go to that bathroom – PLEASE! I sat there for a moment, but was so compelled to go talk with her.

When I walked in, the baby was on the changing table and I smiled at her and said, “I came in here to give you a hug.” She smiled back and her face turned red as I hugged her and said, “I noticed the way you spoke to your husband, and I know you’re frustrated, but that shouldn’t BE. I also have two sons who are 16-months apart and I remember the trying days of seeing after both of them by myself for days and nights and I was married too.” She very jittery says, “Yes, I am frustrated! He normally helps me, and it isn’t that I can’t do it by myself I just don’t want to. His parents are here visiting and he’s been spending a lot of time with them and I’ve been doing this by myself since they’ve been here. But, my mother came with us today and she is helping me.” I said to her, while rubbing her back, “It’s good to have a mother’s help, and you need to apologize to your husband AND give him a BIG HUG!” As I told her that I loved her and gave her another hug, she smiled and said, “I will!”

When we walked out of the restaurant, I told my love what I had said and he smiled at me, chuckled and said, “Ohhh! Only you can do something like this!”

Truly I AM an advocate for healthy marriages and relationships. COMMUNICATION! How we speak to our spouses, in public or not, must BE the speech that will ultimately raise him up and honor him regardless of how frustrated we are. And sometimes, just sometimes, that language is called SILENCE! SELAH! We can BE frustrated or in a funk and still speak with kindness that will draw him in to feel and understand where we are. We can teach our husbands the philological posture that will help him perceive how to dwell with us according to knowledge.

It is refreshing that my love adores me AS IS, and that he LET me do what I was compelled to do in this incident. Yeshua was exemplified! It was what that wife needed to get through the rest of the day without frustration dominating.

“Broken or not, I Love the Glass in My Life

Jul18

I’m struggling with leaving the broken glass because, to me, even in its broken state I see its value just as when it was not broken. True the value has decreased, but nonetheless it is valuable. The labor, the thought, the construction, the production of the glass is all so priceless. I love that glass, and have indeed hurt myself working with its imperfection condition.

That glass has cut me many times as I long-suffered with it; and it times, it has not harmed me at all. It has compassionately appreciated me and gave thanks for not giving up, not sweeping it up, and not throwing it away. I’ve seen the hues of greatness that came peeking through its cracks as we worked at putting it back together…piece by piece, cut by cut.

As it is sometimes, the glass gets weary. It gets tired of being poked at, maneuvered, and twisted into place to be-come its whole self again. It wars with the reconfiguration because of ‘The Pain in the Process’ to be what it is. Selah! However, until the glass wants to work with me and fully cooperate with me and my love for it [lest I too be-come broken], it is in my best interest to let it [the glass] be what it is – and that is broken, shattered, and in pieces.

When I LET it BE what it IS, that’s when the Master of all glass production steps in. Every piece is so important to YAH. Shattered and distributed everywhere, He alone knows where to go and get that one piece to make the glass whole again.

Well-Equipped! Fully-Abled!

Jul8

“I don’t believe I’d be a burden to him who marries me because he WILL COME well-equipped to repair and/or help repair the damage from the happenings of and in my life” (Smith, Angela M 2011). SELAH!

This is realistic and exceedingly possible. It is not a tremendous pressure for a man who IS well-equipped to repair or help repair the damage from the happenings of life. The question that was asked of me was, and I quote, “Who is repairing you at this point? What if this man never appears, do you remain broken?” My response, “He wouldn’t be repairing ME; he’d BE well-equipped to repair the damage from the HAPPENINGS in my life. I [ME] am already repaired by the indwelling Holy Spirit. So, whether he [my husband] appears or not I AM repaired. And no, we should not remain broken. To BE that [broken] is a choice, and an Eshet Chayil (woman of virtue) never remains broken. Perhaps we should discover what happenings that happened that he is well-equipped to repair?

I didn’t expect the woman who asked the question to tell me this, and I quote, “It doesn’t matter that I understand as long as God does. Cast all your cares on GOD for he cares for you. There are so many frustrated single Christian females. It’s naive to think that a man can repair past damage that has been done to someone God created.”

Thus, I say to her “No dear, it’s not naive to think that a man can repair past damage that has been done to someone God created. There are plenty things that man can fix/repair BEcause YAH has equipped him to fix them. When we abide in Him and He abides in us, He has accordingly empowered us to BE repairers of the breach through Him. I do agree that there are so many frustrated single Christian females. However, I BE thankful that I’m not one of them BEcause (1) I’m not frustrated, (2) I’m not single, and (3) I’m not a Christian. I AM peaceful, I AM unmarried, and I AM a BEliever of the Word of YAH. Perception is the key and understanding is even more critical. This is why I say, again, it’s not about FIXING or REPAIRING a person, but rather fixing or repairing a HAPPENING. SELAH!

Proverbs 4:7 (KJV) ~ Wisdom is the principal thing; therefore get wisdom: and WITH ALL thy getting get understanding.

ALL THINGS are possible to him who BElieves! It is pivotal that we BEcome BElievers of the scriptures. Yeshua said it Himself in Mark 9:23 (KJV) “Jesus said unto him, If thou canst BElieve, ALL THINGS ARE possible to him that BElieveth.” When we BE-come this Word of YAH that we read and study, when it BE-comes our lifestyle, we will begin to see that NO THING IS impossible or unrealistic for us to obtain. NO THING! THINKING OUT LOUD: Genesis 11:6 (KJV) And the LORD said, Behold, the people is one, and they have all one language; and this they begin to do: and now NOTHING WILL BE restrained from them, which they have imagined to do. SELAH!

Finally, there was a man of wisdom who had the courage to ask a question that will bring forth sum total understanding about my quote. He asked, “What happening?” I replied, “AWW very good question. I was hoping someone would ask BEcause asking for clarity brings sum total understanding to what is being said.

Example: a spouse whose credit is a mess because the other spouse had taken out loans [unaware to the other spouse] and had both names on the account; or a spouse whose credit score is not 850 but 450 not due to recklessness but due to happenings i.e. job loss, income loss, foreclosure, eviction, more bills less income, robbing Peter to pay Paul and all is still insufficient; absent parent won’t support; depression and oppression is alive BEcause there isn’t enough income to satisfy the needs [not the wants]; education, student loans, interview after interview for years and still no career to compliment your degree; clients stiffed you in your legitimate business dealings and you’ve not recouped your fees for services rendered, one season of success and three seasons of stress etc…

I know people [male and female] who have experienced some of these happenings. I work with them every single day and get phone calls all hours of the night. Not to mention, I’ve experienced one or two of those things I’ve listed above…..AND more!

Him (my husband) coming to me WELL-EQUIPPED means there is no thing [no happenings, no event] that I have experienced/or will BE experiencing will BE a burden to him. The only way that I can BE a burden is if he is not well-equipped and well-abled to BE what he is called to BE.

All those things I’ve mentioned can be fixed and or repaired. Just as there were EVENTS that caused them to happen, there are also EVENTS that will cause them to be fixed and or repaired. Sometimes, we all need help in repairing the damage from the happenings of life. And, I furthermore consider that sometimes, just sometimes, the help that comes don’t even need our help. They will just REPAIR the damage BEcause, again, they are WELL-EQUIPPED to do that.

So ladies, when he comes and BE who he is [well-equipped, well-endowed, FULLY ABLE, to repair; to make it right; to put things in order; to BE the head of the wife; to relieve the stress because of the lack; to make the way light], just LET HIM BE who he is. LET HIM DO what he does! You will not BE a burden, a tremendous troublesome, to him. For it will BE his pleasure to show you grace and for you to experience his love and compassion. SELAH! This I know to BE truth and it is coming to me soon!”

His Plan is My Plan!

Jun30

MY MORNING AND MIDDAY MEDITATION: On last night, June 29^th, I was committed to being in a service that I had planned to BE at for over a month. However, the additional resources didn’t prevail for me to do what I had committed myself to doing. I really wanted to BE there. However, more than that, I wanted to follow what YAH desired for me. Something different was just around the bend and I was open to receive what HE had prearranged vs. me continuously trying to MAKE my plan happen.

During a string of indecisiveness, changing my mind more than twice, a chain of events, some effective communication, and an ultimate “I can’t go” posture, I learned that this wasn’t about me going or not going. It was about me being able to ‘make a decision and stay committed’ to that decision until the conclusion of the matter; even when the end result was, “No! Not this time.”

For many of years, I’ve made compulsive choices; ambiguities that left my first ministry, my family, in unjustifiable bondage; whiffling in weaknesses that pacified me [selfish] and satisfied someone else’s wishes. And, those actions threw my household out of equilibrium. While waiting on and trusting in the LORD, who is full of light and mercy, help that is stronger than I in decision-making has come. This help is from the ultimate Helper. In more ways than two, help is attracted to me and I am attracted to it. Hmm, I just found myself in the Word of YAH according to Psalm 121. I AM, right now, that song. Anyways, one of the most impeccable ingredients about help is that while it comes to help, it also gets helped. Insecurities of the past are kept at bay and healing has come to help’s aid. We are helpers of the war, one to another. SELAH!

Thus, BLESSED is the LORD, Who abides in me and me in Him. He has caused me to BE open to His Guidance, His Will, and His way. Despite the fact that I didn’t accomplish what I had planned, I freely promenaded the path that the day had initiated for me. Every hour was beckoning me; waiting on me to embrace its “decreed and declared” design. All I had to do was rise up to what already was…and I did that! I and my lads met new friends; had a night filled with great family fun and authentic hilarious laughter. My entire soul was flourishing (feeling giddy just thinking about it); as there had been a part of my essence on lock down due to life’s episodes. I even explored the depth of my energy and karate chopped a board (((SO AMAZING)))!

My current stance: I AM pleased with YAH’s plan for me, and my plan is to follow His plan until the end” (Smith, Angela M. 2012)!

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