Today, I read a Facebook post by Leonard Walker, and he was talking about rejection.  Immediately, this read took me to a specific time in November 2004.  I was 37-years-old and was attempting to rise above the results of a now 2-year-old divorce.

Vividly, I recall the day: my son, Jordan, had just turned five in October 2004.  His birthday was past the cut-off date for entering kindergarten, so he was still in daycare.  One day, he got into a fight and was suspended.  Yep!  SUSPENDED from daycare!  Unfortunately, due to the nature of my job, I couldn’t take him to work with me.  Thus, I had to spend my days with him on suspension.

One of those days, I was sitting downstairs on the floor in the living room and he was playing upstairs.  I was having a rough time reconciling my thoughts as I engaged in a conversation with a gent who was duly interested in establishing a relationship with me.  While I sat there, my Jordan ran down the stairs with emphatic excitement and exclaimed,

“MOM!  IF YOU HOLD ON TO THAT ANGER, ANGER IS GOING TO HOLD ON TO YOU!”

My soul snapped alive and I was INSTANTLY delivered from the root of rejection.  Out of the mouth of a babe – the prophet of my womb – my freedom came.  Thank You Jesus!  Immediately, my thoughts traveled to November 1984 – 20 years to the month – when I was seventeen and pregnant with my first-born, Gerald.  I had asked my dad if I could go to lunch with my best friend, who was also expecting a little one.

He said, “NO!  If you grown enough to get pregnant, you grown enough to get out my house!”  I felt that punch in my throat-gut.  I felt his pain and disappointment in his Angela who prayed for him as a child and he was healed.  That moment was the beginning of a 20-year cycle that lead me to live in fear of “asking” anyone for anything, i.e., help, gas in the car, food, directions, support, money, etc.

But, that day?! 

That day the prophet of my womb delivered Yah’s message to me, I recovered and have never been afraid to ask for anything! 

So, here recently, my Gerald text me because he had a need.  I told him that I’d look at my resources and get back with him once I got home.  After I told him that, I put it in the atmosphere, “LORD!  Help me.  You need to fix this!”  It was a legitimate plea because my son legitimately needed what he was asking for.  I wasn’t worried or concerned, I just got out of the car and stayed the course of my Wal-Mart $60.00 budget shopping for the day.

Now, before all of this, I had taken my Jordan to the YMCA.  As we were approaching the drop off area, he pats me on my driving thigh and confidently says, “Mom, you’re gonna be alright.”  We always pat each other’s thigh when we’re driving or riding; just something we do as a display of affection.  

Anyway, whilst in the store I received a phone call.  I couldn’t get to my phone quickly and when I did, I didn’t recognize the number and then couldn’t quite “swipe up or to the side” to even answer it.  So, I didn’t answer it.  Then, it rang again – same number.  The Holy Ghost said, “You need to ANSWER that!”  Glory to God!

I’d not heard from this lady in a very long time.  She asked me for my CashApp ($Nataph) and told me that she was sending me “X” amount of dollars.  The Holy Ghost sent my words to South Carolina, and my plea was INSTANTLY taken care of.  It didn’t take days, weeks, months.  The answer came QUICK!

I needed to ANSWER my ANSWER!  SELAH!

Later that evening, I called my son to tell him WHAT the LORD did and HOW the LORD did it.  He confessed, “Mom, I didn’t want to ask you for help.  I was like, LORD… I’m tired of asking my mom to help me.  But something told me to just ask.”  Here we see the fear of asking in operation again.  Fear of asking because somewhere in his life he’s been rejected.

Give rejection an injection of FAITH. 

ASK!  I compel you to BE the Matthew 7:7-8 (KJV)~Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you: For every one that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened.

GIVE!  I compel you to keep giving!  BE Luke 6:38 (KJV)~Give, and it shall be given unto you; good measure, pressed down, and shaken together, and running over, shall men give into your bosom.  For with the same measure that ye mete withal it shall be measured to you AGAIN!

REJECTION NO REJECTION!