I’ve always been self-conscious about my hair after being told years in and years out that “You have “BAD” hair,” or “You look like a man with short hair.”  So, I started a natural hair process in January 2010 and it has been a slow transition to healthy.  The crown of my hair badly damaged and it appears that nothing I’ve tried has helped.  I can moisturize it EVERYDAY and it does well for a while then it relapse.

Today, I told the hair therapist that I was ready to get a relaxer again or shave it off because it wasn’t getting as healthy as I THOUGHT it should.  She begins to tell me that I have to BE patient.  Previously she had told me that my hair is actually healthier than the first time I came to her three months ago.  I immediately reflected on my meditation about being patient and not complaining about the passing of time for change to manifest.  I smiled at myself because I recognize my complaining.  I was making excuses as to why I should do something different than what I’m doing i.e. I don’t like the way it looks, it’s damaged at the crown, it’s not growing fast enough, the style doesn’t last all week, etc.

I thought about the spiritual work that was right now taking place to rid myself of all the voices that told me all those years that my hair was BAD.  What I started two years ago has been working against 17 years of insecurities and negative language about my hair.  I meditate 2-4 hours a day, but have never thought to direct my attention towards my lack of confidence concerning my mane.

YAH said that he made me in His image and that I [the sum total of who I am] was GOOD.  David, the Song (Psalmist), even declared that I, a Song (Psalmist), am fearfully and wonderfully made and that the LORD’s works are marvelous!  And that fearfully, wonderfully, and marvelous works includes my hair.  Change is changing me and hair.  I must continue in this process of transformation.  Thus, I am patiently waiting for the spectacular presentation of my illustrious tresses.

© February 24, 2012